music/lyric/video - nerdneko
illustration - soyatu

streaming:
https://big-up.style/9BH2P4JVYN

bandcamp:
https://nerdneko.bandcamp.com/album/still-mind



still mind

あゝ溶けるような焦燥を
あゝ嗚咽する感情を

あの日に取り残された僕は
まだ許せないでいる感情を
どう取り扱ったら良いのか
わからないまま時が経った

きっと許せばいいのだろうけど
そうすると過去の自分が報われないようで
ただ、それだけで固執しているんだろう

今日も終わるためだけの一日が始まる
どこかで生活する貴方の不幸を願うことは
悪いことだろうか
いや、きっと、いつか。



still mind

Ah, this anguish that feels like it’s melting away
Ah, these emotions choking me with sobs

I was left behind on that day,
still holding on to feelings
I don’t know how to forgive.
Time passed
while I never learned
what to do with them.

I’m sure I should just let it go,
but if I did,
it would feel as though
the person I was back then
would never be saved.
Maybe that’s all
I’ve been clinging to.

Today begins again,
another day meant only to end.
Is it wrong
to wish for misfortune
upon you, somewhere out there,
living your life without me?

No—
surely, someday.